As I sit here completely overwhelmed by the blessing of a new ministry with my husband, new friendships being formed and a new home being provided…I am also overcome with emotion that God is enough.
In times of happiness…God is enough.
In times of grief…God is enough.
Today is one of those grieving days that I need to remind myself to rest in the truth…God is enough.
Today was the day.
The day I would be holding my sweet, precious baby girl.
The day I would be rejoicing at the new life brought in to our family and world.
But God had other plans.
The last 5 months have been difficult. I haven’t always held things together and often times found myself running to the bathroom for a good cry.
Most days are pretty good. I enjoy my children. We laugh and play together. We smile and give hugs – lots of hugs. I am honored to be their mother…even on the most difficult days.
And then one of my girls says, “I miss Isabelle Faith.” Me too sweetie…me too.
And sometimes we sit and cry together for a few minutes. And sometimes she tells me all the things they would do together.
It warms my heart to hear her talk so compassionately about the sister she never met.
Every night my children pray for “one more baby…or two.”
It is so sweet to hear them share the desires of their heart with our heavenly Father.
I don’t know whether or not we’ll be blessed with any more children, but I pray the Lord gives them they desires of their heart. However He sees fit.
But, Praise God…my sorrow has turned to rejoicing!
I rejoice in the HOPE that I will one day be reunited with my sweet girl – and all my angel babies.
I rejoice in God’s faithfulness.
I rejoice in God’s truth.
I rejoice…because I know GOD IS ENOUGH.